Wednesday, January 16, 2002

Thanks Chuck, you made me feel so much better. What would I do without you? Love.
I get this weird feeling around him. I feel like I'm in a remake of "She's All That" and I play Laney. You all know the story, right? The popular guy makes a bet with his friends that he can make any unpopular girl popular, and he picks Laney. He is really nice to her, takes her out and all, and she starts to fall for him, then she finds out it was just a bet. I mean, sure, in the movie he actually falls for her, and apologizes and all, and it ends happily ever after, but it's a movie. Basically, I think that it's a joke, or a bet or something. I mean, why would one of the most popular guys in my grade all of a sudden start being really friendly and flirtatious with ME??? It doesn't make any sense at all. So that's the conclusion I've come to....
Ahhh, working out always makes me feel better, no matter what. I mean, I'm still sorta down, but I feel better.

Monday, January 14, 2002

Does anybody understand? I need a hug...

Sunday, January 13, 2002

I miss him. I said goodbye today, and as I left, I looked back at him. He was so happy looking, he didn't know what was going on. He didn't know that he'd never see me again. And how could he? But I wish that he did know. I wish he could talk, or understand me, it would make it so much easier. I'm never going to see him again. Ever. Ever. Ever. I love him, I always will, but I'll never get to see him again. Ever.